"Every jewel on my crown, you better believe I earned it..."

 I've always had a hard time with titles. Blogging or vlogging. *Sigh* This title is from a country song, it's one of my favorites. 

So Over This! Review, My channel updates & Hurricane Ian update!

 If you like a YouTube channel that follows a Home Renovation theme, then I suggest you check out Elysia's channel. One of her latest videos is called "We are so over this!" 😂 I get frustrated with restorations too, so I can relate.

Things that go "bump" in the night.

 *I'm skipping parts of my memory because it's stuff that's going in my book.*

I was 3 years old when I met my Best Friend. I was 8 when I met my other Best Friend. Both are of the male anatomy. Both were neighbors. I was a TomBoy. We had quite the adventurous childhood, when we could all get together. B & S.

The year before we met S, B and I discovered an old still road that had a derelict moonshiners still. We were so excited!! It had rusted through and was no longer in use but it was our first big find!! B's dad forbade us to go back there. But we went back there plenty of times, just to rummage in the dirt and wonder how life had been, back then. 

How I Feed My Family of 11 for Under $100 | 77 MEALS! Review

Jamerill has had a channel on YouTube for some time. She's created quite the empire. Jamerill has a private for-pay website and it's worth it to become a member.

Back when my 9 were teens and eating me out of house and home, I was constantly searching for new meal ideas and recipes, to double up on. Then I found this wonderful mama who introduced me to the wonderful world of freezer meals!! Something I could prepare and one of the kids could pop in the oven, while I was at work. (I had many night time jobs to pay the bills.)

Check yo Mail.

 The winner of the lashes Giveaway has been contacted.

Email me back!!

Technically you do have 6 more days to respond, let's not wait until the last minute. 

I WILL pick another winner. Completely voiding your win.

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The Next Few Giveaways Is Ever Changing

 Added 2 more Giveaways to the list, that I won't have to write reviews for. They are part of my stuff that I'm trying to reduce. A "beauty box" that includes items for your skin. Stuff like a name brand face & body sunscreen,  A name brand hyaluronic acid aqua booster & A name brand moisturizer.

The 2nd is a piece of clothing. 

So 6 upcoming giveaways. The first is up... Faux lashes, the next is a makeup bundle, then there's a crystal bundle, & A Google Nest Giveaway.

EyLure Faux Mink Magnetic Eyelashes Review & Giveaway

Want to win 2 boxes of EyLure Faux Mink, Magnetic Eyelashes?! 

Well you've come to the right place. I am giving one lucky person the chance to win 2 boxes. You can wear each pair 15 times!! Since I'm gifting 2 boxes, that's 30 wears!!!

Each box comes with One pair of Fake Lashes & Magnetic Eyeliner.

In The Heart of Appalachia

 Some stories don't deserve pictures or videos. Not everything is content. I'm just really struggling at the moment and find writing to be therapeutic.

I volunteered to accompany some friends whose sole purpose was to come to Kentucky and help out their family members who had lost everything in the flood. My good friends, Mya & Henry tried to prepare me, mentally, about what I would see. I've lived through a tornado, that happened a decade ago, I thought I could handle this. I was wrong. 

I have never cried so much in my entire life. After viewing the destruction in Hazard, KY ... Mya took me back to the donation Center, that's in an automobile mechanic shop. I stayed there almost all day until Henry & one of his friends tricked me out of there. I'm currently in Tennessee, in a hotel and will go back to Kentucky in the morning. Back to the same Donation Center, we were setting up washers & dryers (so people could pick out clothes from the donations & throw them in the washer to have clean clothes later). 

Get this, I walk in to the donation center and ask whose in charge and nobody knows. There's literally thousands of boxes spilling into the street because there's NO ONE in charge. Duh nuh nuh nuhhhh!! Super Nay to the rescue!! I just turned on my southern charm, said a lot of "Please" & "Thank You" and got shit DONE. 

Day in the Life of a Mom of 6: Clean with Me Kitchen, Laundry, Dinner Review

Listen Linda, This mama works her butt off. Like almost every mama out there that has children. There's more to Skye's channel than just videos like this one. Skye is her name and being a good mama is her game. 

She has too few subscribers and needs a boost. 

I love her positivity. Being a mama of 9 grown kiddos, I remember these days well. 

People have asked me if I would do it again and I always say "Yes. It was a challenge back then, to always do your best. No, I wasn't perfect but they all lived to see 18. At the end of the day, you were right where you were meant to be."

Go watch her videos and subscribe to her channel. Help a mama out.

Happy birthday mumsey.

 Today is my mothers birthday. She's 82. My mother had my siblings and I late in life. I don't recommend it.

Still... Even though she made my childhood hell on earth, my brother and I TRY to be forgiving on HER birthday because we understand why she is the way she is.

This year we bought her a dozen yellow roses, a huge triple chocolate cake and  few presents, so she can complain about something new. Oh and I bought them a huge catfish meal each. I'm not a fan of catfish so I bought me a few sides (French fries & shrimp I tried to hide. LOL. I hate catfish, not shrimp!!)

You have no idea how hard it is,to be nice to someone who use to forget where or who she left you with. My mother has recently been diagnosed as paranoid schizophrenic with blatant narcissism tendencies. I heard she cussed out her doctor because he told her, her diagnosis. 

Phone Call Tonight ...

 My sweet guy called his mama nay .. "Can I tell you something?" J asks "Anything, I'll take it to my grave .. You know that. What's up buttercup?" I asked him.

He hesitates, I hear him crying a bit "it's good I promise!!" He exclaims between sobs. He's my dramatic kid, if you couldn't tell. I say very momish " it's ok darlin'. Just tell me when you're ready. "

Now this involves approximately 5 solid minutes of pure, honest to goodness, sobs. This tells me that he's really been feeling a lot lately but is so busy in his 24 years, he hasn't talked to any one but me about this. 

In the past ... The last time J did this, he came out to me. (like my boy didn't think I knew!!) He looked just terrible, sitting on the blue couch, foot going a mile a minute up & down, looking like he was about to cry, backpack beside him. I looked at him and said "KIDS DOWN HERE, NOW!!" I ran over to him, about to pass out, just KNOWING he was going to tell me one of the kids was dead (I had been at work.)  I grabbed his arm "Which one is it?" I asked. "No, Mama" He was almost in tears. "Just tell me? Did Allie do it? Is she dead? Is it bad if we have cake tonight? What!!!!" All the kids were coming in the room "Fuck yes its bad to have cake if I'm Dead!!" Allie exerting her dominance says. She was 13!!! "Well we will have cake when I kill you then. Problem solved!!" Everyone but J laughs, even Allie. 

I walk over to him and put my head to his head "What's wrong, honey? You know I've got your 6 with any thing." He starts sobbing.  The girls are all fiercely protective of him. I stomp my foot and look at each of them. "Ok, Who hurt my boy?" L said " He thinks you don't know he's gay and you're going to throw him out." I just sat down and hugged him so hard. He cried, I cried, then I told him that I've always known, it changes nothing. Then he tells me how he knows people who were thrown out for being gay. I frowned. "If you know any kids who need a warm, safe bed, let me know. We can make room.

Back to the present and before people start saying " oh that was blah blah sweet is in there somewhere blah blah blah ".  I've been there. Homeless with kids and without. My childhood wasn't A bed of fucking roses. 

Anyhow ... J finally said " My best friend asked me to be his best man for his wedding! I didn't think he would ask me and he did!" I laughed and said "Congratulations my sweet boy!" He moaned about a tux, told me how minx (the Chihuahua) was doing, then saying he had to go because of his boyfriend. 

End call.

Honestly .... And people think I need their drama!!!

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Why Am I Here? My Therapist Made Me Do It.

 Monday Funday.

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My Therapist suggested a journal to "document" my existence... I mean my "feelings". Blah. 

So here we are 😁.

I'm watching Netflix's Mr. Bridgerton season 2 episode ... 3 I think. It's ok. I'm less of a sappy show person and more of a science fiction or war movie kinda person. However, Everybody in my brood is watching this and its A hot topic of conversation. So that means I have to watch it to understand what everyone is ooo-ing & ahhh-ing over.

Real Talk.

I have a lot of resentment from the farm but a lot of good memories too. The same goes for my entire life ... I'm only willing to talk about some things. Shayla is still off the table. I will not be hashing out my feelings for my dead child, online. I can't even think about her without having a mini mental break down.

You have no idea how much it hurts to lose a grown child. I don't wish this pain on anyone.

Life is finally starting to get back to normal ... After 2 years of grief. I suspect that I will grieve my entire life. It may no longer be on the surface but it's barely covered.

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Current Dayz. Saturday Last.

Let me begin by saying, to my ex FU, if you don't want to be called FU, Maybe you shouldn't be a phucker!!

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How you Doin' on this fine Sunday?

It's currently 5-ish. I've been working all day!😆 😉Well since 2pm when I woke up. It's hard being a ho 😭 so hard! I want to be one, so bad 😭! 😄 I am one. I could care less! Go on a date.. Get called a Ho! Go for drinks ... Get called a Ho! Go to the gym ... Get called a HO.

The truth is ... If insults are going to hurt your pea picking feelings, start living in a cave, NOW! Life is HARD. Have fun when you can.

This is my "Hobby" blog and I can b*tch if I want too!!!

 Hey, it's cheaper than therapy AND IDGAF.

Yes, I still go to therapy anyway. I take "happy" pills so I can pretend to like myself. Look, most people have trauma in some way. I have been exposed to those who have lived a charmed life and "have never" had a traumatic experience in their entire life. 

Those phuckers really exist!! 😲😲😲😲😲😲😲😲😲

The first time a friend said "I've never lost anyone to death. I've had the perfect childhood and an even better adulthood." For a split second, I hated her. But she is one of my besties! Why would I hate her for being lucky in life? I decided to be happy for her. Oftentimes I have been very happy to be graced with her friendship because she's real honest from the beginning. Finding friends like her, doesn't happen much. Don't sugar coat shit with me. Tell me the truth. Be honest. Because I don't sugar coat anything, EVER. 

How We Got The Farm & Farm Life

 Marriage number 4. I married a dingle berry, we will call him FU. 

The reason we Had to get married is because the state of colorado made us. I had been living there with my 4 nieces { ages 2 mo., 4, 8 & 12}. Now these kids were all girls and I was only related to them by marriage to husband number 3. was also husband number 5. 

Confused yet?